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5/30/2006 12:26:00 am, Tuesday, May 30, 2006
guess how it's funny when the final piece in the puzzle falls into place.
have you ever had a friend you just wanted t please.
you did everything, t the point of irritating everyone, including yourself, just t get some gesture of acknowledgment from that friend.
some days it worked,
some days it didn't.
so you put your head out on the line, opened up your arms and wore your heart on your sleeve.
when she beckoned, you jumped.
when she needed help, you offered.
never did you ask for anything back in return.
and today, you woke up.
and you realised that you've been taken for a ride.
she'll never treat you like one of her better friends.
she's taken that friendship and what that came w it for granted.
and it hurts.
fucking hurts.
to see how you're just a piece of shit.
sometimes you try so fucking hard to be the best you could be.
and the irony is, the person you present, isn't a fucking shit the real you.
but hey guess what, everyone seems t love the 'real' you more.
so you're torn in between two worlds.
and it gets fucking screwed up all the time.
friendships are built on air.
i see plenty blown away by the wind.
the ones that still remain,
i clutch desperately at the wisps of their threads.
it's fucked up to realise how fucking lonely you really are.
5/26/2006 10:44:00 am, Friday, May 26, 2006
CLAY IS HOT.did you guys catch the AMERICANIDOL finale yesterday night?
when that crazy clay impersonator, utterly CMI guy tried t pull off a song.
guess who appeared.
quote 'hotness personified' unquote from www.claymaniacs.com
*proud t be a claymate <3<3>
5/23/2006 05:32:00 pm, Tuesday, May 23, 2006
let this day be remembered as the day i joined the 'losers' club.
yes, i failed my basic theory test today.
well MCQs have always been my downfall.
it's something t do w the numbers i swear..
well. im dying for some regularity in my life.
work-wise.
and i cant seem t wait for the MoS party on the 30th. (p.s: get tix from me quick before they all fly away)
and i miss my girls.
and i realised that
he is darn cute.
i like the way he makes me laugh w his utter self-deprecating humour.
it's just so unpretentious it's actually refreshing and nice.
but then again, i hardly know the guy. lol.
so i'm re-taking it. and hopefully by the 13th of june i'll be ready t get out on the roads.
after all we gotta learn t fail t learn right?
plus. i kinda miss sentosa, the people & the work. now that the tournament is over.
a blast from the past, and hey, i think i look good ;]
5/18/2006 01:08:00 pm, Thursday, May 18, 2006
hello all. guess who's back?
suddenly that week of quiet makes sense doesn't it?
lol. okay randomness & utter nonsense.
i ADORE my beach volleyball job.
cos i get t drool @ fantastic bods..i mean spikes & digs & sets & saves & dives..
u noe...players..i mean skills..
but on the flipside, i'm like black lar.
chao-ta-ed sophie.
like my grandma calls me 'kee leng ko'? its some hokkien slang term for blackies.
sianzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
and that reminds me, i gotta get my left thumb fixed. think i sprained it yesterday mis-setting a ball.
double sianzzzzzz.
anyways. i went t MOS yesterday.
hello, where have all the pretty people gone?
jas and i have concurred that they were extinct last night, judging by her quote 'PRC-ish' unquote guy that asked for her number.
but come t think o it, it was monumental in the sense that for the first time i looked retro on a night famous for being retro.
haha.
plus did i mention, that i've lost out on a sushi lunch.
and that, is something i'm really sore about.
sighh.
cos barca had t come in and not only equalise but WIN the freaking champions league match.
i had such high hopes on the gunners man.
i analysed predictions and pre-match stats.
but sianzz.
they just didn't deliver in the 2nd half.
and henry might be leaving?
i can't imagine arsenal without henry.
just like i cant imagine manchester united without ruud van nistelrooy.
*gazes at the nederland nike wristband on my right arm.
so now i owe someone a sushi lunch. or something. growls.
ok this is random yet again.
but i so need t mug for my basic theory next tuesday.
and get some food in my stomach.
and grow out my hair quick so i can cut it all off.
and zouk w ger and jas next week?
pretty people, please be there.
lol.
5/11/2006 10:14:00 am, Thursday, May 11, 2006
and i'll be leaving on a jet plane.
til i'm back.
so long, good luck & goodnight.
5/10/2006 12:05:00 am, Wednesday, May 10, 2006
imagine daniel powter's bad day playing.
yeah that's my theme song for today.
1) i overslept. i woke up at 12. when i'd arranged t meet ger at 2.15pm
2) cabbed there. stupid transcab driver (SHC 5166 smth) decided t take me t KEPPEL ROAD (near CBD) and U-FUCKING-TURN back down all the way t harbourfront. and then he asked me for the FULL FARE OF $11.10. after tsk-ing and 'shit'-ing himself during the drive. #$%^&. i screwed him and left him w just $6 which is the fare i pay normally.
3) the skies decided t pour on my parade and did so, with a heavy dump of water.
4) had t cab t burlington square from peace centre which is like ($2.50) because of the stupid rain w ger.
5) found out i'd travelled 25 minutes + paid $2.50 (not including bus fare) t sign ONE PIECE OF PAPER.
6) still raining. ger and i tried calling all the cab companies, even standing by the roadside t spot the numbers on taxis. of course all lines are busy.
7) ger left w her colleagues t watch a movie IN A CAB while my dearest mum directed me over the phone t the bus stop.
8) of course my bus pulled away from the stop just as i neared it.
9) decided it was no point pretending running in the rain would lessen my drenching since i'd walked so much i looked like i just came out of the pool in my clothes. people stared. big deal. i love walking in the rain what.
10) of course at bugis, my 2 only buses left just as i got there.
11) waited 15 minutes.
12) finally 61 came. did i forget t mention it's one of the 2 buses that i can take and the only one that takes 50 minutes t get t my place. 7 takes like 25.
13) the air-con dried me.
14) got out at my stop. just t find out it was drizzling. so i got wet. again.
i'm just so anti-transcab & rainy-day singapore right now. i wanna stay home forever. warm and dry.
5/08/2006 11:36:00 pm, Monday, May 08, 2006
i think i may be in love with the bad boy from texas
the cowboy who shoots and leaves
the one that doesnt give a shit who he's killed,
as long as he's dead for fucking around in the first place.
you know the one that everyone's afraid of
the one that has an entry in the guinness book
the one with the girls, the drugs and the looks
black leather jacket and ciggie in his fingers
hell yeah, i think i may be in love with him.
rocking lyrics.
i just got back after my walk from holland v.
sometimes people just need a little 'alone' time ya know.
well.
wednesday mos/zouk? jas suggested mos. but clara wants more of the ian show at zouk.
hmmn.
decisions.
5/08/2006 12:33:00 pm,
i woke up at 7.45.
and i dawdled til 12.31.
and i remembered i had an appointment at 1.30pm @ the NSC.
tee m dee man.
i forgot i havent checked my email for quite some time.
i did so just now.
thought, hey wow, so many people sent me emails.
and realised. they were outdated.
sianzzzzzzz.
5/06/2006 03:23:00 am, Saturday, May 06, 2006
my first ever posting in blogspot.
i attempted t make my own layout (t disastrous consequences)
obviously im not creatively-inclined in that way.
i'm glad clara came over today.
thank you for the card.
i'll be okay. at least that chapter's closed.
it'd take some getting used to.. but that's what happens when you put out old flames.
you gotta fan e lingering smoke and smell away.
and hey, tag me! haha.