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the sun, the sand & the sea.
politikal analyst.
digs rock, raves, elektronik danze musik & fun reads.
1/30/2007 01:14:00 pm, Tuesday, January 30, 2007
happier than i've ever been for quite some time.
let's hope this is for the best, and the start of something new.
:]
baby boy
1/20/2007 01:33:00 pm, Saturday, January 20, 2007
the past 5 months have been a major roller-coaster ride.
i've been hanging on to what i've realised, is a mere shadow of a relationship.
yes, i'm still in love with you, but you aren't that in love with me.
like i heard somewhere 'yes i do love you, but i'm not in love with you.'
and i think that sums you up perfectly.
i want to get back with you and treat you right,
but you don't want to.
you want to keep your options open.
i see that.
so do i.
believe me, the thought of being able to move on is so appealing.
no more heartache, no more turmoil, no more tears.
but my heart doesn't want t let go.
so i accept your offer on your terms.
it goes against every fibre of my being - but i do.
'cos i'll use it as something to get me by while i try to get out of this.
perhaps i'll have t end up sharing you with other girls.
ignorance is bliss isn't it?
i hope you'll respect me enough t tell me when something happens w one of them, and they become more than just 'a friend'.
my gut feeling, maybe hopelessly blinded, sees us back together in e future.
and that's what's keeping me hooked, line and sinker.
my love is unconditional.
and so will be, my pain.
my own cross to bear.
til i find my happy ending.
1/15/2007 01:00:00 am, Monday, January 15, 2007
why is it so hard,
loving you,
leaving you.
notting hill.
enough romantic comedies, thanks.
1/08/2007 09:42:00 pm, Monday, January 08, 2007
ben and jerry's strawberry cheesecake rocks.
and i mean it when i said im gonna be HAPPY.
acid bar or timbre.
my new hangout places.
esp when ur in an emo-acoustic kinda mood.
1/06/2007 03:55:00 pm, Saturday, January 06, 2007
just so it's clear.
yes i broke up some time ago.
and i'm single.
but i'm still taken in a way.
cos i'm still in love.
and i'm nowhere near falling out of it.
so i'd appreciate some sensitivity and privacy.
thanks.
1/05/2007 12:45:00 am, Friday, January 05, 2007
another hiatus.
maybe i'd close down this blog.
far too dusty, far too under-used.
so much has happened.
so much re-evaluation.
what is truly important to me?
true friendship.
honesty.
true love.
and for awhile,
for a moment,
lines were blurred.
but i've come out,
hurt, scarred.
well, it takes pain and suffering to learn.
dear friends, enemies and those who are neutral.
believe not what you hear and see, but what you know and trust.
who i was and who i am are two different persons.
perhaps truly, time will tell and age makes people wiser.
i've lost someone important.
and i plan never to lose anything important to me anymore.
wake me up everyday,
and i'd thank the heavens i'm alive.
and i'll be happy,
and this happiness will last for a long time.
right now, i'm healing.
slowly but surely.
and i'm cutting ties,
with the last iota of who i used to be.
transition is over.
a turbulent transition period i may add.
but it ended today.
and second chances do hold true.
let me make it up to you.