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the sun, the sand & the sea.
politikal analyst.
digs rock, raves, elektronik danze musik & fun reads.
6/30/2006 08:59:00 pm, Friday, June 30, 2006
1.Are u photogenic ?
- i think so!
2. What time do you go to bed ?
- world cup period up t 5am. else usually before 1am.
3. What was the last thing you did before this ?
- had a late lunch/dinner w my NUS orientation group people (ROTANA ROCKS!)
4. Who's the one you always meet the most ? --
- CLARA ONG.
5. Who's the person you'll call if you need help?
- it's a tie between CLARA ONG & JAMIE LIM.
6. What's on your mind right now?
- i wanna go t essential brew t meet ROTANA!
7. What do you prefer?american/malaysian/singapore idol?
- AMERICAN. everything else is just - boring.
8. With whom do you wanna be with to have fun?
- CLARA ONG, JAMIE LIM, JASMIN KANG, GERMAINE NG.
9. What movie do u wanna watch now?
- SUPERMAN RETURNS.
10. When was the last time you went out?
- JUST NOW - from NUS to Holland Village.
11. What do you hate the most for now?
- nothing! +D
12. What do you do everyday besides eat & Drink?
- SLEEP.
13. Colors that make you happy?
- purple. silver. black. red.
14. Most fave thing?
- ROTANA. lol.
15. Miss someone?
- ROTANA.
16. Plan to buy something?
- NEW YORK THINGS!
17. Are you satisfied with your life now?
- i'm on a ROTANA HIGH.
18.Do you like seafood?
- only fish, crabs, stingrays.
19.Breakfast or dinner?
- dinnerr.
20. like chocolates?
- i love dark chocolates.
21.Do you have a phone?
- yes.
22. What's your favorite fast food?
- KFC
23. Cats or dogs?
- DOGS
24. Salty or sweet?
- Sweet.
25. City or country?
- right now, NEW YORK.
26. Is kissing normal for your age?
- not kissing is abnormal for my age man.
27. Are you athletic?
- totally.
28.favorite band for now?
- FLYBAR.
29. Do you have your own cell phone?
- yes.
30. What do you wear to bed?
- shirt & shorts
31. Ever had a crush on a teacher in high school?
- nay
32. Coke or pepsi?
- i love coke and i cannot lie.
33. sugar or spice?
- spice
33. Can you use chopsticks?
- yep altho i hold it wrongly
35. Do you care about getting good grades? -
- im like the original nerd
36. Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
- the question is have i ever not fallen asleep?
37. Get a job or ask your parents for money?
- jobjobjob.
38. Is your mom strict?
- she's strict in a very liberal sense. makes sense? lol.
39. Do your parents give you enough privacy?
- more than enough.
40. Do your parents trust you?
- im basically a lone ranger.
41. Would you ever wanna lose your best friends?
- would i wanna drop dead right now?
42. Does your best friend get on your nerves?
- no. i HEART CLARA.
43. Do you make friends quickly?
- yeah cos im NICE.
44. Do you tell your mom everything?
- apart from my personal life.
45. What do you & your parents fight about most?
- whether i'm old fashioned (my mum's opinion) or she is (my opinion)
46. If u love someone & she/he rejected u, what will u do to her/him?
- nothing man. i'll just run & hide from sheer embarrassment.
47. Can u sing or rap?
- im like 50 cent (the 5 cent version)
48. If u have one wish , would u make the wish for ur wife/husband?
- he/she can go find his/her own.
49. Wut do u think bout this survey??
- nonsensical. LOL.
im back from camp. it ROCKS. i LOVE ROTANA, my orientation group! we're headed by this pair of i/cs, CARRIE & CHONG HAN, my leaders are IVAN & EUMING, councillors, Liying, Vivien, Chuan Seng & Ivan - and THEY ROCK. cos we bonded SO WELL. i could go on and on. they wanna meet me for a farewell dinner before i leave for new york! hahaha. SO NICE! muack muacks. just so excited RIGHT NOW!
6/25/2006 04:48:00 pm, Sunday, June 25, 2006
afterthought: you may wanna leave me testimonials/messages on friendster/tags on blog or play my theme song -
wonderwall if you all REALLY miss me. (ok, stop rolling eyes please! -_-''') so sue me cos im in a good mood =]
6/25/2006 04:05:00 pm,
everyone's changing, there's no one left that's real.
walking by you in hallways, do you notice me at all?
and i see a whole new life paved out for me -
a wondrous new adventure waiting to unfold.
tomorrow when i leave, i'll come back,
but only when you do remember -
remember me as that.
life will dart past as fast as the wind,
and baby, i'll leave you crying in the lint.
take heart & smile -
see the butterfly will die if the wings are held,
and see how i'd die if you don't let me fly.
'que sera sera, whatever will be, will be.'
maybe you weren't meant to love me,
maybe i wasn't meant to love you.
such a ironic ending eh? lol. i apologise for my poetical whimsical lovelorn-ish poems. anyway people, im JOLLY EXCITED t be off @ camp tmr @ nus w my REN (ger, muacks) & friends. aye, we're supposed t bring clubbing gear for our finale night, Project X @ ZOUK. (meet me there if you're missing me too much k dearies?) im meeting CLARA later - she's probably not gonna see me until the late half of July =( JAMIE too, in fact, all my peeps aint gonna see me til then~! but u noe what, email me, sms (til i leave for new york), i'll do my best t keep in touch, and its just roughly a MONTH that i'll be away! *in fact, you'd probably won't even notice i'd gone! just that your days & nights would be -thatmuch- quieter & more peaceful... hahaha.. cia0z. HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY JAMIE LIM SHI TIAN <3<3<3> x S.
6/24/2006 01:20:00 pm, Saturday, June 24, 2006
26th June - 29th June 2006 : NUS FASS Orientation Camp4th July - 13th July 2006: New York New York!11th July - 15th July 2006: NUS Union Campdoesn't my calendar look full to you? lol.
but im very excited about the middle entry.
Dad just confirmed it yesterday.
got home about 4am this morning. didn't know late-night shopping @ mustafa could be SO FUN. and debating whether we should buy turkish delight since Edmund in 'Chronicles of Narnia' enjoyed it so much - clara & ian, heaps of laughter. right ian, once you make it big - you'd better not forget me - i let you touch my bum!
6/23/2006 09:39:00 pm, Friday, June 23, 2006
znnavigation on my blog isn't hard. the hearts are there for a purpose. just click @ e side of the main box t go up or down.
helllooooooo <-- jamie's contribution *rolls eyes. ;] and clara says hi.
wonder if you've registered yet..one might think one's alright. your position's firm & there's no danger of an ouster. but see, a Julius Caesar incident might be waiting t occur. Your brethen, your shroud of confidence and security may envelope you & kill you. and then whatever, whoever you were so sure of protecting, having - is lost.
cos i won't be around forever.i won't want to be.nistelrooy's falling out of favour everywhere. even e only coach who wants him, van Basten wants t drop him. ive followed him since PSV Eindhoven, and i know what he is so capable of. it sucks when people try to diss him & i realise, ive got nothing t defend him with. and people will just dismiss me as another 'airhead wannabe-one-of-the-guys-kinda girl'. whatever. i stick through the rough and the smooth, and i aint gonna abandon him. haha. and probably on hindsight, coming t England was probably the worst thing he could have done for his career.
6/23/2006 03:27:00 am,
strange how words can't seem to have the capacity to describe adequately how and to what extent one is feeling.
sophie wishes she could fly out of here. yesterday @ zouk, joey was crazy & he apparently blew a shitload of money on booze. it was so crowded,
thanks ian for accompanying me, luckily i managed t get in. i saw so many hot stuffs last night and i had great cheese prata t cap it all off, despite a very dramatic session w a drunk joey unable t get home without waking up my cousin & aunt who now wanna report him t his mother & roast him for dinner etc etc. signed up for NUS FASS orientation camp w ger, jas, grace & tini today and we arranged on impulse to go overseas for 4 days and 3 nights, 1st week of july. and i'm gonna arrange it. i can't wait.
it's getting claustrophobic and i want to bang my way out. japan and brazil are playing and i want them to win just so they can hold the asian flag high & stay in the world cup a while longer.
i took a walk home tonight, amidst the dark & lights from the city sky, i smiled to myself and let out a little sigh. 'hey baby, what are you doing this time? see the girl who walked by your side, where is she tonight?' but 600 miles away and he'll never hear her say, 'hey baby, what are you doing this time?' so now jas knows - and i see this black hole that's opening up below me
. how far would i go to be like you - i wish i knew for sure if i were a toy or something more because despite every inch of my sanity, goodwill & conscience, i'm no longer mine anymore.
6/19/2006 08:20:00 pm, Monday, June 19, 2006
im such a schoolgirl.
so much for being 19.
where's my maturity at?
lol.
being able to say fuck whenever wherever, doesn't mean ive grown up.
probably means im a
poseur.
the club, the dark, the night, the booze & the music.i'm surrounded by you.strange the reasons why one goes clubbing.
my thumb hurts, it gets this strange tingling sensation all the time.
and then beads of sharp pain shoot up.
it's good to be home for one whole day.
6/18/2006 04:24:00 pm, Sunday, June 18, 2006
yesterday was the party, and man, what an emotional roller-coaster.
as my people would have known, stuff happened behind the scenes that were totally shit.
but u noe, it 'didn't take anything away from the fact that it was a totally
ROCKIN'party.
apart from the fact sales were shit all across the board - doubtless cos of the 2 DXO parties the week before, the MoS and Zouk parties the same night & scammers w cheap prices.
apart from the fact that the DXO management were totally uncooperative & unreasonable.
apart from the fact that 'celebrity' hotshot band S.L. were living in their own world of hot air.
we still had rockin' music, a rockin'dj (DJ KayC fyi), a rockin'party (music, life, rock & roll) & rockin'people. wanting, daren, weeky - we should just continue makin'parties together forever. haha.
but seriously, if anything, communication is key in a team or a coalition.
have i mentioned how much i love cheese pratas? cos i stuck around til the party ended, met my girls, doro, jasmin & clara (who i love for coming t support & sticking by me thru everything) as well as alvin & james to go eat spize prata @ zion road. rocks. capping off a rocky start and a sweet end.
6/17/2006 01:09:00 am, Saturday, June 17, 2006
quite simply, i doubt i'm feeling stagnant anymore.
i'm set adrift in the open sea,
and i'm missing you already.
do you think you'll ever be mine?
tomorrow's the party. i hope everyone will have fun. it's been sucking us (the organisers dry), but it'd be worth it, only if you all try.
6/15/2006 03:48:00 pm, Thursday, June 15, 2006
by being a part of your world for that while
i saw a part of my life unravel
stars and glamour glitter your satin sky
while booze and money drop from above
my daylight would stifle in your nights
while people and simplicity litter mine.
i held on to what i only knew
in that sea of glitz i didn't know
your hand seemed like the only comfort there was
and i only wanted to be with you
perhaps this barrier might not last
and even the pauper may play the prince
but see our differences and how they divide
and i realise my fears may pull me away
to the world, and the people i belong to better
and in my heart's mind i do understand
nothing more and nothing less
in your spiced up and stratospheric life
i may be nothing more than just entertainment's dice.
a poem i wrote which puts me in mind of 'almost famous'the groupie movie starring kate hudson. check it out - kinda similar. journalist tracking this groupie who wants t be part of this star's life so bad, obviously in the end, failing. anyway couture @ dxo this saturday. do remember alright. and i need to fly to meet jon. sorry babe, didn't mean to be so late. haha. happy belated birthday!
6/13/2006 01:35:00 am, Tuesday, June 13, 2006
my life's easel stands stained w blots of red,
my painter's brush hangs by my side, dead.
no one picture has come to be.
colours seemed to be stifled alive.
the sun will set, and it will rise.
but my pain will live, and maybe,
never die.
cos w a tear,
i remember you.
and w hurt,
i remember me.
perhaps the party is getting under my skin.
are my people letting me down?
is this a disaster in the making?
so much for publicity,
it's not showing itself in sales.
i only recall reflecting.
and then instead of crying in despair,
i laughed out loud.
6/10/2006 09:20:00 pm, Saturday, June 10, 2006
i woke up today, nearly wanted t call anna and tell her i didn't wanna go t work cos i was so shagged from sleeping at 3.30am after watching the opening world cup matches. damn, i lost $5 (andy:thanks for buying the bet for me, cos i'm so noob that it's utterly embarrassing t try and buy bets anyway). but it hasn't stopped me from wanting t dole out $50 for the england-paraguay match. plus she tot work started at 9! crazy. luckily im hourly paid. and i dunmind being paid an hour less since i was so shagged anyway.
gosh, the mexican referee for the match is sooo card-happy. cautions, cautions and yellow card! but english possession is good, and becks is playing well=]
luckily i went t work anyway, cos i didn't feel e fatigue as much as i thought i would, i saw this damn cute gorgeous boy with a fractured arm and his pretty mum going t e zoo. he stopped by for a tattoo, and when he thanked me and smiled, i felt i was gone. *beams. made my day. and ren rong, anna's daughter painted me all over w her tattoos. lol. not much o a colourist but good enough, girl! work ended at 4. and due t some dispute w e HR people, anna paid me my salary there and then! =D
of cos, i went off, realised my coupons for KFC expired tmr and promptly bought a Buddy's Meal and a Hot Wings Meal for my family w my salary. i HEART kfc btw. and i got home t find my cousin's expecting a GIRL. rocks. of cos she shld call her sophie. i mean, how special is sophie anyway? lol. then i checked my email, and the highlight of my day came. MYKINDOFPLACE responded, they like us, and they wanna work w us after COUTURE!! like what a big break is that? makes up for the shitty 2 days.
http://www.mykop.com.sg btw ;] rocks. all those late, sleepless nights - PAID OFF. hongjie's, weeky's all happy too. although i hope RONIN stops acting like a bigshot -_-"''. and although i'm still highly stressed about SALES. zz, i'm being my own party-pooper.
and my handphone is set in BAHASA MELAYU. so i can learn malay. lol. my mum finds it damn amusing cos she says its e first time she heard o someone doing such a thing. hey, at least i know now from the top o my head that KENALAN = contacts, PANTAM = delete, MESEJ-MESEJ BARU = new message and PANTAR = view. lol. rocks ok please? show o support, thanks. lol.
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6/09/2006 03:41:00 pm, Friday, June 09, 2006
it's so exasperating i'm tired.
i remember a conversation w roger.
i said i don't do people with emotional baggage.
yeah, i should have stuck to it huh.
i guess you think i did this psychological brainwash thing on you.
lol. an untrained wannabe psychologist? hmn. future career perhaps.
but seriously,
stuff happens. it turned out that way, you probably read it that way.
it's up t you t believe what happened i guess.
what you know of me, what you believe of me.
perhaps this time, we've both really pissed each other off.
some alone space might be ideal.
cos i am pissed that you just started shooting stuff at me.
and you know darned well i'm busy and alr very stressed about other things.
if you were a Chocolate Frog, I'd bite your head off.kinda funny i'm typing this as though i'm speaking t you in person.
probably cos i know you know i blog.
i know you do too, but i can't find it, and i guess i shouldn't try to.
so we can agree on that - nil invasion of your privacy anymore.
btw, do you know if you assume, you make an ASS out of U and ME?
i'm not that pissed anymore now that i've ranted.i don't stay angry for long anyway.typed like 10 emails t publicise COUTURE yesterday.
i'm dreading checking my email inbox lest i face an influx of hatemail cursing me for spamming or something.
guano: it was good hanging out w you yesterday, a breather from my work stuff !~+D
col: take care babe. you sounded/looked/were very sickly.
jas: forgive me for not giving up my bed on this cool rainy morning t traipse over t NUS for the LPP thing.
clara: i know i should be at rocky's now accompanying you w my work while you mug. i'm leaving after i eat my brunch and shower.
andyboy: enjoy BMT. lol. 3 months will fly.
ben: hope you aren't pissed, still HEART you babe and i won't pangseh next week's paintball.
runners: get back t me ASAP w confirmed sales please...
and the list goes on..
6/08/2006 11:33:00 pm, Thursday, June 08, 2006
my throat's sore from all that talking last night.
i'm suffering severe sleep deprivation and yet i'm back in front of my PC hard at work.
guest lists, tables, tickets & runners..
event management should be a consideration for choice of future career.
weddings, d&ds, parties and balls..
maybe i should consider seriously setting up a company.
lol.
big dreams sophie, big dreams.
i'm still hating my feelings, hating them more and more everytime i think about my present state of self.
stagnant inert me.
maybe cos i don't dare/don't want/can't be bothered?
people like me don't bring happiness,
we bring complications.
if life was a routine, i'm the occasional blip.
if life was a washing machine, i'm the stain on the clothes.
if life were a Subway sandwich, i'm the Daily Meal Special.
do you get what i'm saying?
and can i be safe with you?
6/07/2006 02:54:00 pm, Wednesday, June 07, 2006
it's crazy how i log on t see whether there's anything new,
i think i visit you like a few times a day.
and i don't even know why.
like how you get under my skin all the time,
how i get so exasperated and pissed off with you.
how i don't understand how someone can be so guarded and yet so open.
how you're so contradictory and yet consistent.
fuck i'm even speaking in juxtapositions.
the medium of cyberspace provides a cover for any developments.
you scream bad news and i concur.
but screw it, i'm a goner.
hang on, wait up and back off.
i shouted myself hoarse.
those days were filled with exhaustion but satisfaction.
i knew you were around somewhere somehow.
fuck emotional attachments.
miss wham, bam and thank you maám.
i see no point in hanging around after the deed's been done.
before you judge me, shut up.
in diplomacy 101, they teach me the importance of building bridges,
but baby, you're burning them down before i'm done.
and i'm walking away with singed fingers.
6/07/2006 01:43:00 am,
im so anti-wirelesss man.
my lappie keeps disconnecting.
growls.
and im stilll feeling screwed up.
but clara and jamie have been dears.
so has everyone else.
thanks.
i miss my cheese prata.
COUTURE@DXO. 17JUNE SAT. 9pm - LATE. $5 shots all night, 11-1am 1-4-1 PROMOTION. $118 vodka & jim beam promotions. ROCK CONCERT (9-11pm) featuring RONIN, FLYBAR (http://www.flybartheband.com) & local bands. CLUBBING PARTY (11pm onwards; R&B HIPHOP TOP40s) a whole new ROCK&CLUB concept. Presale @ $18.
6/05/2006 09:12:00 pm, Monday, June 05, 2006
my tests are so contradictory i can't help chuckling in amusement. hey, i was bored. somehow, i had t wonder - who was answering these tests? me? or the person i want to be? ah well. read them and have a laugh folks.
You're an Angel!
What's Your Goddess Identity? Brought to you by
Tickle You're fit to commit because you know what you want
Are You Fit to Commit? Brought to you by
Tickle Your trademark tune is Black Eyed Peas' "Where is the Love"
What's Your Trademark Tune? Brought to you by
Tickle You're single because you don't want to slow down
Why Are You Still Single? Brought to you by
Tickle You find love in a Secret Crush
Where Do You Find Love? Brought to you by
Tickle
6/04/2006 11:27:00 pm, Sunday, June 04, 2006
If you leave me now, you'll take away the biggest part of me
No baby please don't go
If you leave me now, you'll take away the very heart of me
No baby please don't go
A love like ours is love that's hard to find
How could we let it slip away
We've come too far to leave it all behind
How could we end it all this way
When tomorrow comes we'll both regret
Things we said today
Cause I need you more than you'll ever know
- Chicago
heard it today on doro's ipod. it made alot of sense so i decided to paste an excerpt on my blog. it's strange how in a noisy crowd, there isn't really anyone but me. how i see my stars in others' faces, my loves imprinted in strangers. it doesn't make sense anymore. maybe my heart's telling me something, but i don't want to try anything. i'm tired now and it makes no sense to hope for something that probably isn't meant for me. yeah, call me cynical. but matters of the heart just never mentioned my part. i told her today, that if i ever got married, i'd want my wedding song t be eric clapton's 'wonderful tonight'. my ultimate soft spot song. haha. if i ever had a wedding. fuck. it's just so irritating the way i think about things. i try to drown my inner self in work and physical fatigue. it doesn't work. not only do i get tired, i get emotionally and mentally exhausted. not t mention, shit about my party. june 17 people. please don't let me down.
COUTURE@DXO. 17JUNE SAT. 9pm - LATE. $5 shots all night, 11-1am 1-4-1 PROMOTION. $118 vodka & jim beam promotions. ROCK CONCERT (9-11pm) featuring RONIN, FLYBAR (http://www.flybartheband.com) & local bands. CLUBBING PARTY (11pm onwards; R&B HIPHOP TOP40s) a whole new ROCK&CLUB concept. Presale @ $18.
i hope i made the right decision in going t nus..
i miss sentosa. michele, james, gen, calvyn, kelvin, justin, ross, hwee ling, maspol, masfuz, suku etc.
fuck. i hate my fucked up feelings.
6/04/2006 12:47:00 am,
and of today, i've become an NUS student.
now let's hope my mum sends my OAM form in on time..
6/01/2006 11:01:00 pm, Thursday, June 01, 2006
nus or smu?
i really don't know what t choose.
branding vs. style vs. credibility.
somehow i'm inclining more towards nus, if not for mere nearness of location alone..
i guess by the weekend my choice would have more or less been made.
nus or smu?
i gave up on my uni of melbourne, uni of sydney and trinity college admissions because of my grandmother.
she didn't explicitly say it out but i knew it anyway.
she doesn't want me t go, cos she wasn't sure she'd be around t see me return.
and that was good enough a reason for me.
overseas stuff can wait.
time and tide waits for no man.
im beginning t get used t working in sentosa.
it is fun in a way.
and the people are nice t work w.
but it is tiring.
and i guess..
ah well.
i don't know what i guess anymore.
cheese prata rocks.
i love ger for meeting me just t satisfy my craving.
and i wanna sleep now.
people think she's my girlfriend. hell yeah, she's like one of my best girlfriends. it's ironic how many people think i'm lesbian just cos i love my girls & i'd rather hang out w them anyday. do i really give that 'unattainable' vibe like they say? somedays i feel so lesbian. somedays i feel so bisexual. isn't it strange i never feel 'so straight'? haha. then again, somedays i feel like i'm the ground shit lies on. somedays i feel i am the shit. isn't it strange i never feel like i'm better than shit?